Family Reunion

I just returned from a few day family gathering and even though my anxiety was through the roof, I was fine. Regardless of how isolated I thought I should be or how anxious I felt everything turned out ok. In my delusional state I fear I was wrong to think like that because my family accepted me for me

There was no drama, no hate, no mistrust, just a band of family who missed each other incredibly much and hadn't been together for way too long. Even when I spent one on o e time with individuals it wasn't that bad.

My love goes out to my family and to all of you reading this.

Lots of love,

Mitch

Review of the app Mood Tools

I have recently been using the app Mood Tools, by the makers of the same name. There are six sub categories in the app and I will go through them 1 by 1;

The first category is the information there are a few tabs that give you some space general information on depression and it's few subtypes

Next, is the ten question, somewhat accurate but also generic diagnostic test. If you've ever tested yourself for a mental illness over the internet then you'll recognise this.

Thirdly, there are several videos that are utilised to stabilise your moods and relax you in times of stress.

My favorite tab is the thought diary tab. It asks you to put your thoughts down and then to reflect on them at a later time.

Another useful tab is the activities tab. It lists several activities and hobbies one with mental illness can do to alleviate some of the symptoms.

Finally, my second favorite tab. The safety plan tab. Or the life saver. If you don't have a safety plan handy then make one. It's your life in the balance.

This quick review was approved by mood tools and maybe I'll do a question time with them if I get response from this

Check out there website: www.moodtools.org

Leave a like, retweet or comment and tell me how your Christmas was pretty give me some blogging ideas

Love you all,

Mitch

Wow Make Happy was fantastic

This is a review of the comedy special make happy performed by Bo Burnham

I just finished watching this comedy special on Netflix and it had me in tears. It was not only comedic it was thought provoking too. The performance was so unique as it always is with Bo. Make Happy didn't disappoint it had me laughing so hard my stomach started to hurt. Moreover, throughout the special, I was alerted to relevant problems with our society.

Today was another tough day so I was binge watching comedy specials and this one in particular spoke to me. I deffinently recommend this to any body with a sense of humour

I hope all your holiday stress is melting away.

I wish you all the best.

Lots of love,

Mitch.

The holidays

Something about the holidays brings out so much stress in me. I think it's that, as an adult, I now choose to seperate myslef from those, as a child, I was around during the holiday season.

You may be wondering why that may be. Well the reason I used to abuse hard drugs is because I was exposed to it almost daily as a child and teen. Then, fresh into adulthood, my mother, my own mother, passes me the pipe and encouraged me to take some crack hits. My father on the other hand was always abusive when he was drunk which was daily. 18 beers a day can be tiring when you're around it.

I refuse to be the middleman anymore. In the drugs, alcohol, and abuse. What a set of distorted relationships. I'm brought back to it as if it were yesterday. So, NO THANK YOU!

I am in need of some new holiday traditions. Share some of yours in the comments. And shoot me an email at borderlinewanderer@gmail.com, tell me about your holidays

Lots of love,

Mitch

Seeking help for your mental well-being

It took me 6 years and three attempts on my life before I sought treatment for my mental illness. Apparently I'm not alone.

Check out this link. Props to NPR.org:
http://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2016/12/02/504131307/study-vast-majority-of-people-who-are-depressed-do-not-seek-help

TL;DR

• Protagonist lost 80% of friends while dealing with depression.
• "If we hide our mental health, it may remain a problem forever.
• People are often stigmatized to feeling mental illness is a result of personal weakness.
• Thus they don't seek treatment 
• In a study of fifty thousand in 21 countries 1/27 sought and found adequate help for mental illness.
• There needs to be an increase in awareness that depression is treatable.
• "If you feel something is wrong with you, seek help."

Hope all is well

Yours truly,

Mitch

My Life Story Part One

So as I said I'm a university drop-out, ex crack head, overly anxious, socially assisted individual. My life currently looks a little bit like this:

I sleep very little. Maybe 4 hours a day. Always awake and manic by 3:30 am. Earlier this month I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, I reached a new 18 pill total. None are narcotics but the sheer amount of medication alone is taking a toll on my body. I'm 23 years old. Some days I wonder if I will ever reach a realm of normality again. I see doctors/psychiatrists/councillors at least once a week. My soul purpose as of late is to make all these appointments and I've been neglecting that. as well as every other adult responsibility I've taken on thus far.

You may still be wondering the point of this blog other than for me to vent, well; I need a forum to express my trials and tribulations of this disease that affects so many. Also I feel everybody could use a third and forth ear to listen to your story. Well I could be your shoulder to cry on or one of the members of the community of strangers that I hope to help reinforce.

I do not wish this disease on my worst enemy but many suffer from mental illness and I want to be able to help in some small way

Happy holidays

Yours truly
-Mitch

Me the eve before xmas

Hey guys and girls hope the eve of Christmas isn't brining you down any.

Here's a pic of me Dec 24 2016 if it'll make you feel better email me at mitchelljones263@gmail.com send a picture of you, your pet, your favorite thing, anything. I'll give you three true compliments

First and Foremost

Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. At least i hope some part of it was good even if that part seems tiny and insignificant hold on to it.Hold on to it tightly. If you have trouble remembering a good moment over the last few days, then read on....

My name is Mitchell Jones and I am a nearly homeless, ex hard drug abuser, university drop-out, chaotic and overly anxious human. But I am also just that, a human. Most have trouble treating those who are labeled as mentally ill as humans. Never forget behind all those labels is still a human being you are a human being. A human being who deserves love, care, and attention .

If this has piqued you're interested then I should be posting daily and hopefully multiple times a day. I love you all you all deserve that love too.

Don't be afraid to email me at mitchelljones263@gmail.com